I took some time to go through my journals to look for entries that might be encouraging to others who are seeking to understand their security and identity in the Lord. I’ve titled these posts “Moments in His Presence”, because they flowed out of time spent wrapped in his love and listening to his voice. I pray that they may encourage and bless you.
I love you with an everlasting love – a love that will not die and cannot be defeated. You live in me; I live in you. Come to the fullness of the understanding of our unity. I challenge you to fully open yourself up to my love. I demonstrated my love for you at the cross. I demonstrated my love for you through the Holy Spirit. This is enough, but I long to give you even more. The fullness of the Spirit is available to my children. Long for it, and pursue it. Seek and you shall find. I give only good gifts to my children. Take time to seek me – I am waiting for you, and am ever eager to meet with you. I love you in all truthfulness, all faithfulness – a love forever.
Fear has stolen my life. Now I am taking back territory.
Sometimes we hear a teaching that really changes our life. For me a message by Danny Silk did just that. It was a simple message about our comfort zone and “Championville”. Championville is out there in that terrifying place that is out of our control. Something about Championville lit a spark in my spirit. I wanted to be in Championville.
So I drew out his illustration from the lesson and kept it on my desk for a long time. I would look at it and wonder, can I go there? Finally I decided if I didn’t do something now, I would never do anything. So following the motto go big or go home, I picked the craziest, most radical group I knew to join for a missions trip to South East Asia – the Banov’s from Global Celebration.
As I prepared to go, I knew if God didn’t show up, I would be an utter failure and failure was my biggest fear. However, if God did show up, then what I believed in my head would become what I actually experienced and knew in my heart.
God, of course, showed up as he always does when we step out in faith. And even though to the world’s eyes I might not have been the most outgoing, “successful” team member, just being there was a great victory. Father wrapped me in his love and peace the entire trip. I simply rested in that place and followed along. Fear did not and could not infiltrate his wings of love.
We experienced amazing things – healing, salvation, love, joy. We were blessed with getting to love on and minister to orphans, individuals in the red light district, individuals who lived and worked at the garbage dumps, and in the slums. It was an amazing and life changing experience that would not have happened if I had listened to the voice of fear.
2 Timothy 1: 7 (AMP): “For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self control.”