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The starting point?  I don’t know the starting point.  The result?  Yes, I am all too familiar with the result.  Fear, anxiety, depression, illness, confusion – a long list of dysfunction.  Amazingly, despite my journey of self-destruction, my Father continued to sustain, preserve, and guide me to His destiny.

My eyes unveiled, dawn breaks forth, freedom calls me to new territory.  New territory in the Kingdom of God – set aside especially for me by my glorious Father.  He’s been waiting for my return.  He never once stopped looking, scanning the horizon for me.  “Father, I’m home!”

 

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From the Heart of a Child – a Journal and Conversation with Father

This is something a little different and a bit personal.  It is journal and conversation with our heavenly Father told from the perspective of a child.

 

Today I got lost. I couldn’t find my way home. Dark. Cold. Rain. My tears mingled and merged with the rain.

“Papa, where am I? Have you forgotten your little girl?”

“Child, I will never by any means leave you or forsake you. I love you with an everlasting love, and I am the light of your feet. Child, look up! Your deliverance is at hand.”

 

I got saved today. Lying in the grime all alone, my tears ran out. But someone beautiful picked me up, washed away the grime, wrapped me in warmth, and mended my tatters.

“Papa, how? Why?”

“My little lamb, how could I not search for you and find you and bring you home? I sent my beloved Son, because I love you. I gave him for you – to save you, to heal you, to love and protect you.”

 

I received a beautiful, glorious robe today. Jesus gave it to me. It’s called the Robe of Righteousness. He gave it to me for free, but it cost him so very much. He bought it for me because he loves me.

“Child, wear the robe always. You honor and glorify my Son when you accept the gifts he gives you. Be consumed in our love.”

 

I discovered a great treasure today – Me! I am like a treasure chest with marvelous treasures hidden inside waiting to be brought out. Papa, showed me this story about the Kingdom of God. It is like a man who found a great treasure, and sold all that he had to purchase it. Jesus gave up everything to purchase me, because I am of great value.

“It is hard for me to understand, Papa. I don’t feel worthy?”

“My jewel, you are worth the best of heaven coming to earth to save you. No one is “worthy”, because all have sinned and fallen short. But you are of great value and worth it!”

 

 

God’s love is unconditional

In My Father's House

Love_cloudGod’s love is unconditional, which means it has no conditions.

You would think this is obvious and needs no further explanation since God is love, yet many Christians still struggle with this. In fact, some have even taught that God’s love depends on our response or behavior.

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Do You Trust Me?

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Father and I have been conversing about trust for quite sometime.  Or it may be more accurate to say, Father has been pointing out truths about trust, and I have been arguing back and forth with myself.  My thought processes and actions regarding trusting Father vacillate following illogical patterns that James describes all to well… a double minded man unstable in all his ways, tossed like waves on the ocean (my paraphrase).

So I have many questions, but no real answers as to why this dichotomy exists, other than what Leif Hetland says, “Deception is deceiving”.  If we let deception infiltrate one area, it will spread and gnaw away at others.  Deception grows.  However, the sword of the Spirit pierces the lies and darkness to reveal Father’s truth and light.  Facing the deception unsettles us.  But we need to be unsettled – at least I do.

The ugly facts brought to light by Father were I trust Him for salvation of my eternal soul;  I am growing in my trust in His healing and divine health;  and I am growing in my trust of His divine protection.  However, I don’t really, deep down trust Him to meet my physical needs.  I find it very difficult to ask for financial blessings and favor.  I don’t really believe that Father wants to open the storehouse of heaven and pour blessings upon me.  I have the religious mindset of getting it the old fashioned way – I must earn it.  And if I don’t continually struggle to keep earning it, then disaster will strike.

I don’t know when or how I will get to that place of trusting Father completely in this area.  I know that I don’t want to continue with a schizophrenic belief system.  My desire to live the supernatural life style, which is the normal Christian life, has not waned.  My heart’s desire is to walk constantly immersed in His presence.  But there exists a level of trust that for some reason I am hesitant to cross.  However, I know the author and finisher of my faith.  He never removes his hand from me.  What He started, He will finish.

Psalm 91 – Father’s Protection

eagle flyingPsalm 91 is one of my favorite Psalms. At one time, I did not understand that the promises in the Bible were really for me, so I didn’t receive what they had to offer. A wonderful evangelist from Singapore, named Joseph Prince, opened my eyes. Ever since then Psalm 91 has been my favorite, and I declare it over myself and my house. So below are some comments and thoughts regarding this Psalm. [Note: the information regarding the names of God is from http://www.hebrew4christians.com. The Bible translation quoted is “The New Jerusalem Bible”.]

In the first 2 verses of Psalm 91, three names of God are used.

  • Elyon – most high God (stresses strength, sovereignty, and supremacy)
  • Shaddai – the all sufficient God (related to sufficiency and nourishment)
  • Yahweh – the personal name of God the source of all being

These verses describe one who lives in the secret place of Elyon, spends his nights (sleeps/rests) in the shelter of Shaddai, and who says to Yahweh, “you are my refuge, my fortress, my God in whom I trust!”

What is the result of living, resting, and declaring trust in Yahweh?

The next verses declare that Yahweh rescues, covers, shields and protects him. He has no fear of any calamity whether at night, during the day, at noon, or during darkness. It goes on to state that he will remain unscathed and no disaster or plague will overtake or come near him. God even gives his angles orders to guard him.

The keys all of this protection and shelter is expounded in verses 14 and 15.

It says, since he clings to me –> I rescue him; Since he acknowledges my name (Elyon, Shaddai, Yahweh) –> I raise him high;  Since he calls to me –> I answer him. In distress I am at his side. I rescue him and bring him honor.

It concludes in verse 16 with, “I shall satisfy him with long life, and grant him to see my salvation.”

So what are some keys for us to receive and live the Psalm 91 life?

  • Believe in the nature of the Father as expressed in His names, His acts, and His son – Jesus Christ.
  • Stay (live) in the secret place, communing constantly with Elyon. Jesus opened the door for us to dwell in the Holy of Holies.
  • Rest in the shelter of Shaddai. Father provides ALL of our nourishment. Our needs are fully met by the All Sufficient One. We can do nothing without Him. We can do all things through Him. Our power to walk unscathed is a direct result of our ability to rest in the finished work of Christ.
  • Declare Yahweh as your refuge, your fortress, your God in whom you trust. Acknowledge His name.

May Father’s love and shalom overwhelm you! May you grow in the revelation of his everlasting love and his mercy that endures forever!

No Orphans In God’s Kingdom

131231_untitled_0062Jesus came to reveal Father –  Abba (Daddy) Father.  Paul says we can boldly come before the throne of God.  Why?  Because we are His little children running to our Daddy.  There is no fear, disapproval, condemnation in Daddy’s eyes.  Only love pours forth from his throne to his children.

It requires a child’s heart to cry out, “Daddy” and to enter the King’s domain.  How do we get a heart of a child again?  Simply ask Daddy for it.  Ask him to reveal his love, his heart for you.  Let Holy Spirit heal you and give you a new heart.  It may feel like you are being broken into a million pieces, but the end result of a restored heart is worth more than all the gold in the world.

Two Viewpoints

dove2I see two viewpoints regarding our relationship with Father God being proclaimed by Christians. One that sees us, even as followers of Christ, as slaves. We are to work to do the will of God and be obedient servants. We are sinners saved by grace who perform to be acceptable and valuable. It may not be stated quite so bluntly, but that is the gist of it.

The other viewpoint is that Father loved us so much, he sent his son, Jesus, to buy us out of slavery. We were purchased with a great price and then adopted as sons.

So which viewpoint is correct? Paul clearly states that Christ was the firstborn of many sons of God. He also says that all of creation groans waiting for the sons of God to be revealed (Romans 8). In Galatians 4:6-7 Paul states, “And because ye are sons, God hath sent forth the Spirit of his Son into your hearts, crying, Abba, Father. Wherefore thou art no more a servant, but a son; and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ.”

So are we slaves/servants or sons/daughters? Seems clear that Jesus made it possible for us to be sons and daughters of the most high God. Jesus made it possible for us to call God, “Abba (Daddy), Father. The slave/servant mentality is the attitude of the older brother in the parable of the Good Father (a.k.a the Prodigal Son).

What I see in myself and in other Christians is a tendency to not understand that Jesus made a way for us to be children of God living from Father’s inheritance. When we act and teach from the viewpoint of the slave, we dishonor Jesus. To be truly victorious, we have to fully grasp that we are children of God, adopted into His family, living from inheritance, and hidden in Christ. Father has freely given us all things in Christ Jesus. Let us not dishonor Him by acting and believing like the older brother.